Do You Have a Love Hate Relationship With the Process?

I almost wanted to quit my job last night.

Not really really, but close. I threw my hands in the air in frustration after receiving not one but three emails requesting more detailed information on a project I needed to begin work on.  It would be one thing if this were something new that I was learning and therefore might make a few mistakes on. Although as a 'seasoned' member of the workforce, I don't give myself much slack there either. No, it was something I had done numerous times before, and once again I sent off my processed request in a willy nilly fashion, expecting the results to be different this time. Hmmm.... Isn't that the definition of insanity?

I have always struggled with the details of the process.

It's not that I don't appreciate the process or the components of it. I just don't want to be the one who has to see they are done. I have come to understand that I am one of those people who gets a vision in their head and just wants to gather it all up into a ball and throw it to success. I'm a make it happen gal, but more the starter or the anchor, not the second or third leg. And last night, as I gritted my teeth and attempted to comply with the details in a weary state of mind, I realized something of importance:

When you get angry with the process, you lose sight of the goal.

In those hours of angst, I had forgotten what the process was all about. I had looked away from the reasons why I do what I do and who it is for ultimately. Not just to make my life simpler or the company I work for happier. But to serve a population of people who need our support to live fuller and complete lives. There are many components in the process of bringing that vision into perspective, and each one is important. 

So many other visions in our lives require process details, don't they?

We can attempt to bulldoze through them, but then there might be a gaping hole in the road to your goal.  We can expect the details to be done by someone else, but then they will be altered and no longer yours. 

We should keep a firm ownership on our visions.

Be the keeper of our dreams.

Trust the process.

Cheers.

It's Time. Get Up.

"If all you can do is crawl - start crawling."

~Rumi

Some might think these words apply to starting something, but I think of restarting.

After all, when you first make a decision to begin some giant course of action, you are filled with adrenaline and expectation. Your stomach might be a little nervous, but it's an excited nervousness that fuels your determination. You've plotted a design for exactly how you will make it to your goal - this time. More than likely, you have been here before, but never quite made it, turning around or taking a seat and chalking it up to another attempt. 

These words are for that moment ahead of you when you land flat and can't fathom getting up.

You know those moments. Maybe you are right there today. Things were going fine, but somehow you allowed life to derail you or you tripped. Once again, you have failed. Damn that hurt didn't it? Perhaps you laugh it off. Maybe you get depressed. Most of the time we only do not acknowledge, we just excuse so we can keep some sense of esteem. Rumi's words are for that moment when you get very honest with yourself, and you consider that laying flat in this place just will not do. It is not how you want to finish. You can still see the finish out there ahead. So how will you get there? 

Start with a deep breath and a little glance backward.

I generally don't encourage looking back. It can lead to becoming stuck in what has passed and out of your control. However, when considering beginning your crawl to getting up, you might want to understand what caused the trip down in the first place. Think back to those moments just before you flopped downward. Logically, it was a stressor or a celebratory quirk that distracted you. But more often, it could have been sheer boredom or impatience. 

Or maybe, you're one of those who thinks you don't deserve to be happy?

Or you don't have what it takes actually to achieve that dream?

Or you are more regular that extraordinary?

Take a chance. Dig into the ground with those knuckles. Get up.

Cheers.